To LoVe is tO LeT gO

Have you ever heard of the saying that goes something like this; “to love is to let go”. Let’s just say that I never bought it. If you are willing to let someone go, it simply means that you don’t love him/her. I’m sure you will hold on tight to something/someone that you really love, come what may, right? The phrase just doesn’t make sense to me. But it was only before. Before I found the man that I truly love.

But now, I’ve found the love of my life. I love him so much. Sometimes I cry my self to sleep thinking how much I love him. I never know that it hurts really bad to love someone so deep. Every night I’m wondering if I have done enough for him. Did he know how much I am in love with him? Did I ever hurt his feeling? Have I done enough to make him happy? Is there anything else that other women in the world did for their man that I’m not doing for him? Am I beautiful enough for him? I’d do anything just to make him happy.

But again, I didn’t know if he is meant for me. Maybe he is my destiny. Maybe God brings him to me because we are meant to be together. Or maybe it’s the other way around. I’m just hoping and praying really hard, Dear Allah, please let it be him. I don’t have the guts to tell him this, but I really want to spend the rest of my life with him. I know that I can make him happy. I know I’ll be happy with him.

If you love someone, set him free. If he comes back to you, he is yours… forever!

Harus selalu kau tahu
Ku mencinta mu di sepanjang waktu ku
Harus selalu kau tahu
Semua abadi untuk selamanya

Kerana ku yakin
Cinta dalam hatiku
Hanya milikmu sampai akhir hidupku
Kerana ku yakin
Disetiap hembus nafasku
Hanya dirimu satu yang selalu ku rindu

Resolution

Friday, 29 December 2006

Im at my mom’s place. This is the last week in 2006. Oh dear.. 2006 has been though on me. I’m hoping, real hard, that 2007 will bring me all the good things. Can’t help but to wonder what I’ll be doing, and where will I be this very same time next year. 30th December 2007. Maybe Im happily married, maybe started my own business, maybe reading novel or watching tv in the comfort of my own house, with the person that I love, or maybe just the same me. Same hairstyle, same status, same negative habits, same old, same old… Read my horoscope on the magazine and also in the news paper. In a glance, grass is greener on 2007 for scorpions. *finger cross

My baby is taking the Friday off. Im happy =) we start the day with roti canai and tarik. Later, from sogo to sg wang and finally O-utama, we call the day off at 10.30. phew…. But again… to be able to spend the day with him… simply delighting. Enjoyed every second of it.

Saddam Hussein served his punishment today. I got depressed watching it on the news =(

Its Raya Haji eve. Muslims all around the world will be celebrating it 2morow (maybe a day earlier in some other parts in the world). Planned to perform prayer with my baby in Putrajaya Mosque. That is if we got up early, considering it is already 1.53am, and Im wide awake in my room typing this entry.

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Part of the fun of celebrating New Year is in making resolution. Making it is easy, but the tricky part is in the execution. I started to have my own new year’s resolution when I was in the university. Simple resolutions such as making sure that I pass all my papers, to have bf (hey, it’s my resolution… so I can decide on any, even though it may sound stupid to most of you), to loose a few pounds, etc. Let’s just say that I manage to execute most of it.

So for this New Year, I decided on a few realistic, attainable, and measurable resolutions:

To do:

1) Spend more time reading
2) Spend certain portion of my money for charity
3) To own a house.. my own house
4) To spend more time visiting my dad
5) To improve my self spiritually
6) To make sure that I discipline myself in performing prayer
7) Eat healthily
8) Eat less chocolate (oh dear! This is going to be the toughest)
9) And if it is not too much for me to ask… to improve my personal status (financially, friendship, or even get married.. maybe)

InsyaAllah…

Not to do:

1) Waste money on shoes
2) Shopping without planning
3) Buy things that I don’t actually need
4) Have negative perception, attitude, etc

Flat tyre

Today is my first day working in the new year. I woke up early as I want to start the new year in every positive way as possible. I left the engine of my car running for few minutes (to wartm up the engine) since I've left it unused for 5 days during the public holiday. When I'm all set to leave for work, I noticed that one of my tyre is flat. Argh... the first obstacle in this very new year. Since "positive thinking" is listed as one of my new-years resolution, I try to solve it calmly. The problem is:

1) The tyre is TOTALLY flat
2) My car is blocking my housemates car, so I have no choice but to move it to another place
3) Im not sure if I can still drive it to another spot fearing that it will cause damage to the rim
4) I dunno how to change the tyre to a new one
5) Am not sure if I have a spare tyre. Even if I do have one, I dunno where it is
6) Same issue with the car-jack. Am not sure if I have one, and Im not sure in which part of the car it's been stored.
7) I dunno what to do first, giving this situation. i.e flat tyre.

So I took the phone and dialled my baby. No answer. I dialled Mazran. I told him everything. He asked me to release the hand break and to push the car slowly instead of driving it (hhhmmm... wonder why I did not think of this in the first place). And he said that he will help me change the tyre after work. =) told you it pays to stay positive.. hehe

Left for work with ita... at office, everyone shows how concern they are with my problem. One of my staff offered to attend to it. At 1 pm, everything was settled. They went to my house, jacked the car, took the flat tyre to the shop, had it patched, and fixed it back to my car. Phew!

Bought him a swiss roll cake as a token of appreciation. Pay him back the RM5 for the cost of patching (yes, its just RM5). And I made a vow to help people in need (within my capacity), so that in future, should I be in need again, a helping hand will be extended to me.