mo' money mo' problem

I am not performing at work today. Somehow I lost my concentration and focus. I really looking forward to 5 pm when I can actually drive quickly back home to my small and cosy room and hide. Hide from the true reality of life, hide from my family problems, and top of all, hide from my personal problems. Call me a chicken, but it is too much for a 25 years old women (Iam not a girl, and almost a women) to cope with.

1) I am far away from my close friends and family, in an alien place and new environment,
2) having a crisis in a relationship,
3) trying hard to reduce weight (I dont actually put much effort on this to be frank),
4) doing my best to perform at work and to impress my boss and to manage9 staff
5) my dad is in the hospital, fighting to recover so that the doctor will not take his left leg away,
6) My eldest sister facing crisis in her life, financially, and I love his son very much, therefore her crisis is mine too...
7) My mom is having a never ending arguments with my younger sister
8) My step siblings is trying to out perform me and my sister in impressing my dad (they can pretend and show how concern they are over mydad's health instead of his money)
9) the presure from my relatives on when will I get married (my cousinof my age is getting married early next year, so the pressure isgreater)
10) My own urge to get married and I don't actually have anyone to call my BF...

The list can goes from one page to a full 10 pages. Depending on thedetails and severity...Anyway, here comes 4.30. My boss ask me to come to his room to discuss afew matter. I look at my watch and its already 10 past 5. I said to my bossthat I actually need to go back early today since I have a very importantengagement. He look shock. He didn't even blink an eye... He stare at me asif I have turned into an orange... Eventually he ends the discussion. Iwent straight back home. My friend from tennis called to ask if I want tojoin him at gym. The trainer there which area of my body is my mainconcerned. I said its my leg abviously. So he suggested for me to spend 30minutes on the treadmill. After what it seems like a 30 hours brisk walkingon the machine, I discovered that I have lost 135 calories. I was impresseduntil the trainer actually told me that there is approximately 140 caloriesin a glass of "tea tarik"! Can you imagine that? You spend like 5 minutesto drink a glass of tea tarik and you need an exhausting 30 minutes on atreadmill to lose it! I swear to my self that I will not allow any food topast my throat ever again!Can you keep a secret? I actually eat a slice (a very small slice) ofchocolate cake that my housemate bake that night :-)